Late Night Ramblings

As I sit up without sleeping tonight, I can’t help but look at my life, past, present, and future. 

Two entries ago, I wrote a nebulous passage about the past and dwelling upon it.  I also wrote in May that the man I once believed to be my soul mate would be getting married July 22.  I guess that’s officially today, isn’t it?

Well, despite my ponderings, here I am.  My choices have led me to this place, just as other people’s choices are leading them to marriage (congrats to Kara and Brett, by the way!).  Where is this place, anyway?  Well, I’m working hard to get my master’s in opera performance, I’m acting in a straight play, and I’m working at a job where I can expand and perform my musical theater and jazz repertoire. 

The other day, I thought about a different part of my past - the opera choruses in which I worked for 5 years or so before coming back to get my 2nd degree.  I remember going to Les Miserables as a child and longing to be a part of the experience.  I remember admiring the choristers in their costumes, wishing I could someday perform on a stage like that for a living.  Yes, I do find it astounding that it took me this much time to recognize that I’ve already lived and am living a part of my childhood dream.

Yes, I’m working hard.  Yes, I have a long way to go.  No, I’m not what you might call well-endowed, financially speaking.  Far from it, in fact.  But what they don’t tell you is that all of those things have their place in the life of a performer.  We love what we do, and we make sacrifices for the forever pursuit of a higher art - and for the pursuit of having the opportunities to present that art over the course of a lifetime. 

What am I complaining about?  Nothing, really - I have no idea.  I watched La Vita e Bella the other day.  Life is beautiful - and that definitely includes mine. 

Oh, and by the way, there are 2 more weekends of Anne of the Thousand Days,and I’ll start posting my schedule at Mimi’s soon, for those of you who have told me you want to come hear us sing.  :)  I love you guys…

“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.” -Epicurus (341 BC - 270 BC)

“It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow.” -Robert H. Goddard (1882 - 1945)

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